Time has brought your heart to me. I have loved you for 1,000 years, i'll love you for 1,000 more.

I made it. 

I made an entire 8 weeks without a drop of caffeine. 

As an addict, I never thought I could! It took an entire 5 weeks for it to get completely out of my system. I couldn't believe how long the process took. 

People with addiction have one of the hardest struggles imaginable.

Not only does it effect your daily life, it changes the chemistry of your brain.

Your brain is just fixed on what you want.

That's all it focuses on... and you can't do anything until you get what you want. You can't care about anything else except what you want. 

It's consuming and smothers your spirit. 

It makes you helpless and apathetic.

addiction is struggle. 

Through my journey, I stumbled upon my new favorite quote:

"The most common way people give up their power is by thinking that they don't have any."

-Alice Walker

When you don't feel like you are capable of change, of making yourself a better person, and really reorganizing your life, you won't.

Rarely can we be the things we can't see. 

If you don't imagine and believe yourself to be a better person, then you won't be. 

I think sometimes we have to go down to the bottom,

Sometimes you have to lose everything to see it all.

You have to look around. You have to gather all of the good things about yourself, Pick up all of your strengths, all of the little things you have left that make you happy... Then what?

You fight like hell for them. 

Right now...

my heart is full of regret. 

I regret not loving like I should.

I regret not being more considerate of others.

I just regret for not loving with my whole heart,

I regret giving someone a lesser version of myself. 

Because neither one of us deserve that. 

I have got to make a promise to myself right now that when love comes back around my way,

I won't be afraid of it. I won't run. I won't reject it. 

I have to embrace it and take care of it like it so wants to take care of me.  

you know what you're capable of.

believe it.

There comes a point when you have to tell yourself that you're going to be ok. 

you have to tell yourself that enough times that you actually start to believe it. You have to believe it with everything in your body. 

You have no other choice now.

Your heart hurts, 

you start think of everything you could have done different... 

you have to believe in bigger things, 

you have to believe in yourself.

You are not the mistakes you've made.

you have got to remind yourself of that. 

Don't let the past define who you are right now in this very moment. 

Just be here...

Just be in this moment as the best person you can be,

that's something you can't ever regret.