it's only natural

I am happy.

And I believe myself when I say it.

keep the waters turning,

stay on your toes,

Have a great day.

:)

starting now

Starting Now:

-take more deep breaths

-take a second to yourself

-don't procrastinate

-manage your money wisely, think ahead.

-snack smarter, stop heading for the lucky charms.

-wake up earlier, you know it makes you feel better.

-do something active at least once a day, work doesn't count!

-have a positive attitude at work. 

-think of yourself as highly as you think of others

-STAY MOTIVATED

-think of the woman you want to be in ten years,

do everything you can in one day to get closer to that.

-stress less, take it one day at a time.

-if heels make you feel good: wear them.

-take time for those long awaited conversations

-tell the ones you love that you love them

-think twice about something... anything

-make something new

-write someone a thank-you card

-laugh at something stupid

-pay attention to what you are putting into your body; this is your BODY

-let something you've been holding onto go

-do something different with your spare time

-wen you want to speak: don't

-You know what makes you feel good and what doesn't.

Do more of one and less of the other. 

21 days.

starting now.

-

I am loved

Things went from good to bad pretty quick.
There was actually the thought in my head that I had no where else to go,


I wanted to just give up.


I wanted to give up on my dreams and everything that i've been working for,
all because someone told me I couldn't,
... and I believed them. 


I let one person get under my skin and make me feel less of myself,
I let that one person make me think that I wasn't good enough to do this on my own.

I love it when dreams come true,

the thrill of having a question answered,

when joy over comes tragedy,

I love knowing I'm never alone.

Too often I wonder why i've been given this life. I wonder what I'm working so hard for,

what's it all going to come down to?

I've always wondered why I started out with no mother figure in my life, now I have many. 

I have a huge family, I have people that want and really are there for me. 

I don't thank them enough for doing that,

I don't thank them for making me feel like I'm good enough,

for talking me through life changing situations, 

or to just simply make me laugh. 

I remember when I wanted to go to College,

my chances looked slim to none getting out of that one horse town.

I've lived in the beautiful state of North Carolina for almost three years now.

I was told that it wasn't in my blood to accomplish things;

that I would end up just like my mother, 

who you are isn't where you've been, 

where there's a will, there's a way.

I hope one day I can be a mother like mine,

I hope I can be one of my daughters best friends.

People were placed in your life for a reason,

we may all go in different directions, but we take pieces of one another with us where ever we go.

Then there are those people who you meet one time, 

and you know they'll be a part of your life forever.

The people who always surprise you with their efforts to make you happy,

you realized they never gave up on you,

why give up on yourself?

The people who sometimes don't know what to say,

but thats enough.

The people who make you believe in yourself,

no really...

she'll MAKE You.

Then one day,

you meet someone who's love makes you feel unstoppable.

It expands your dreams and gives you wings.

It makes you feel worth everything.

everyone has someone who has never stopped believing in you.

not a definite definition

Typically, a family consists of a mommy, a daddy, and some chilren. (Madea)
My world is a little different.

My family are the people that are always there for me, 

despite if we share the same blood.

In my world, DNA sharing or a wedding vow doesn't say much.

Someone once told me,

"Sometimes, you have to create your own family."

I have.

It isn't typical or traditional, 

but it's mine.

irreplaceable

You said,

I remember how we felt sitting by the water,

 and every time I look at you,

it's like the first time.

I fell in love with a careless mans careful daughter,

She is the best thing thats ever been mine.

<3

You are the first thing I think of every morning, and the last thing I think of before I go to sleep.

You are in everything I see,

and you could never be replaced by anything.

You took my heart and ran away with it.

between how it is and how it should be

where can you run to escape from yourself?
where you gonna go?
where you gonna go?




How about we take a walk outside.

I am so thankful to live in these mountains.

I am so happy that it is November.

Scared, but so happy.

Lately, I think it's the little things that mean the most.

An "i miss you"

A "thank-you"

An "I'm proud of you."

Those things are really nice,

Especially when you feel like you work really hard and no one notices.

I think we should all practice being proud of who we are,

we don't need words of approval I suppose, but its always nice. 

This is Lauren.

Lauren is my best friend. 

I am so thankful to have her.

She knows every little thing about me, and is still friends with me.

And...

We have definitely already made plans to bury a few bodies.

:)

&& we are obsessed.

I have a good story to tell:

I talk to people for a living. I also simply scan groceries, I like the talking to people more. 

Last Halloween, some friends and I were all dressed up in our Halloween costumes and decided it would be a great idea to ride the Cat Tran around campus. 

Our driver was a really nice lady, she was laughing right along with us the whole time.

She came into the store yesterday,

I recognized her and brought up the events of last halloween.

She looked at me and said: "Are you little red riding hood?"

I laughed and said "yes ma'am, that was me!"

She started crying and said:

"You saved my life that night, I was considering suicide until you and your friends came along."

That was the first and only time I have ever ridden the Cat Tran.

....

When I was fifteen years old my step-dad committed suicide.

And then I had to watch my mom suffer, I had to watch her want to die herself.

Suicide is something that I have never quite understood. Its something that I try not to think about but it happens.

Since then, there has always been a tiny part of me that hasn't quite gotten over it.

We meet people every day, we walk passed them on the sidewalk, we run into them at the grocery store...

We never know what anyone else is going through, we never know what they are debating in their heart.

I think it's important to show people the very best of you because... you might be saving someone's life. Which in turn, may save someone else's life, who may save someone else's life. 

We are where we are for a reason.