and then I wrote you a letter

It's time to get real.
It's time to just put it out in the open the way it should be.
As simple as it should be.
As 'me' as is should be.

I disappear into the people I love.

I let myself get lost in the process of making everyone else happy.

         And then I run.

    Sometimes... I just yearn to be alone.

                      I yearn to be responsible for only me.

   I yearn to be the only thing holding myself back. 

I yearn to be good enough... 

                  ...good enough for myself.

I want to be strong. Strong enough to be myself

      in the midst of you. 

  Strong enough to know my own needs. 

        Strong enough to admit my own needs. 

Strong enough to do what I want, 

Where I want.

When I want.

Why I want.

How I want. 

I want dreams.

I want my own dreams. 

I want to accomplish.

inspire. 

wonder. 

wander. 

imagine. 

try. 

love.

 lose. 

dance. 

cry. 

laugh. 

go. 

go. 

go. 

I want to be brave enough to say it's the end, 

strong enough to say it's only the beginning.