Today: Today I bought my plane ticket to Italy. Finally. All that hard work and saving finally paid off. I may not be able to pay rent on time, but I am going to Italy.
:) Relief feels damn good.
Today: Today I think I grew up just a little bit more. Oh, responsibility... Just when I think I have enough of you. Anyway:
I am going to Italy. I am going to Italy. I am going to Italy. One more place to mark off the list.
At how it truly broke my heart to have to watch her leave But she was torn between what she wants and what she needs They say you love someone enough you gotta set them free See she was born to leave this town behind Knew the truth but still she looked me in the eyes and lied Saying it's time to cut the ties Time to say goodbye, so she left But she never never left my, never never left my mind"
I'm so sorry.
I think it feels good to be appreciated,
Lately, I've been trying to give people the same feeling.
I am ok,
I am going to be alright,
everything is going to work out fine,
Just like usual.
This may sound extremely weird,
but I was watching this spider in the shower this morning.
Every part of its body benefits the other, every movement it made was so precise and perfect.
It cracks me up that some people's initial instincts are to squish the hell out of these creatures. I think I was too tired for it to really click what I was staring at. (haha)
Anyway, it just made me think of how everything works in our lives, no matter how super super crappy they are at the moment.
There's a darkness upon me that's flooded in light In the fine print they tell me what's wrong and what's right And it comes in black and it comes in white And I'm frightened by those that don't see it When nothing is owed or deserved or expected And your life doesn't change by the man that's elected If you're loved by someone, you're never rejected Decide what to be and go be it There was a dream and one day I could see it Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it And there was a kid with a head full of doubt So I'll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out
Good morning, campus. I'm glad I live so close to you.
It is a beautiful morning, not too cold, not too warm. The sun is shining through the golden and red leaves, it's a different kind of glow.
I was thinking about the places I've been, the things that i've seen.
Carolina, you keep calling me home.
I would consider Carolina to be my home. Sure, it's not where my mom changed my diapers, or where I went to kindergarten. But it's definitely where I grew up.
I can be myself, here.
I can think for myself, act for myself.
The friends I have here know me.
They know the me that wasn't influenced or molded by anyone else besides me.
The beautiful thing is?
They STILL love me!
:)
Kayla Kelly;
You are something else.
Thank God we are best friends because we know way too much about each other to be enemies.
we're never alone.
There is something in my life,
something that not many people can say that they have
This something makes me laugh, it makes me cry,
It completes me.
It lights up my life.
It answers every question.
It is 8187 miles away,
but every where I see.
love;
when it makes your whole day to tell one person about it,
when an email keeps a smile on your face, hours after you've read it.
when you feel like you are never alone, no matter how silent the room is
when you don't have to wonder, you just know.
when you feel like you are finally enough for someone,
just the way you are.
when you are happy,
when you are happy like you've never been happy before.
it's incomparable to anything else,
don't give up on something like that.
don't ever give up on something like that.
Be real,
it feels good.
Certainty.
(I love country music,
I don't care what anyone says.)
Yesterday I was inspired by the movie "The pursuit of happiness."
You know, anything is possible. I think honest hard work is always rewarded some how in the end.
I'm going to keep that in mind today.
Sometimes you have to create what you want to be a part of.
This morning I walked into a coffee shop and saw a guy giving a girl flowers. She was sitting by the window with her friend talking, hearing them laugh made me smile on my way to the counter. I felt like I got flowers.
It's going to be a good day.
Yesterday it really pissed me off, today I can laugh about it:
I think thats a good sign.
In life we never stop learning. We never stop learning about life itself, or the people in our lives. At times people can really surprise you, good or bad. Yesterday I got really disappointed. It's not just a sad feeling, it's super discouraging. Turns out I'm not the only selfish person in the world, so that's good news!
Point is: We live and we learn. We get knocked down in different ways so we can keep practicing standing back up. We gain and lose along the way, but it's okay. We're supposed to.
I think I'm really good at forgiving, it's the forgetting part I have a problem with.
It really doesn't make sense why people feel the need to be mean to others. I understand that we aren't all made to get along with each other, of course we aren't. But it absolutely does not make sense to be mean. I feel like people actually have to put forth effort and extra energy into being mean, who wants to do that? If only we accepted each others differences.
I'm always amazed by Love.
Sorry about the rant, I just wanted to get everything off of my mind before I started my FRIDAY. i <3 friday
There's those moments of certainty. Those moments where you are so sure...
I skipped my biology class to have a 36 minute broken up skype conversation with Matthew.
I just needed to hear his voice, despite that it was in a million pieces.
When he said goodbye,
I couldn't even keep it together to tell him that I love him too.
It's moments like those,
the moments when my heart is in a billion pieces because once again, he was gone. It moments when I feel so frustrated that I start shaking, it's the rawness of the pain and joy I feel when I hear his laugh and hear him say my name.
It's times like these and moments like those that make me so sure of what I want.
What I want is thousands of miles away, but all at the same time, right in front of me.
When you find what makes you truly happy in life,
hold on to it.
Appreciate it, love it, compliment it, most of all...
