I'm so excited to have plans for myself, goals, and challenges up ahead.
I'm happy that I know what I want to be, and I know who I am.
You know what else I love? Learning to understand things. I love having arguments that help you accomplish understanding of that unknown area. It's awesome.
As "ok" as I feel in the spot I am in, the more unsettled I become. Some people are born somewhere where it's everything they could ever need. Some people are born settled and are content with where they are. This little heart of mine...it's always longing for something more. I always want to go somewhere else, I always want to get to know another part of the world. I learn to be content, but just content enough to be settled in. A little piece of my heart is always set on the next place. I knew in 6th grade I didn't want to be in Florida, I love my hometown, I love the place that made me who I am, but...i'm over it. Time to move on and allow growth in a new place.
This Summer:
St. Vincent and the Grenadine Islands.
Ft. Collins, Colorado.
If you know me, you'll know that once my heart is set on something, I am determined as hell to get there.
I'm lucky to have the parents that allow me to go and follow my dreams. I'm so lucky my Dad encourages me to grow and to live my life. I'm so lucky to have opportunity. I'm so lucky just to be alive. (Thanks, God.)
A long time ago I heard the statement,
"always be where you are."
I never understood that until I moved to North Carolina,
I think it's really important that when you move to a new place to kinda disconnect yourself from the last place you came from. When I first moved here I was still trying to live in Florida and you just can't do that...or you'll never be happy. As bittersweet as it is, you have to move on and make new friends, make a home out of this temporary thing. Before you know it...ah :)
This summer, I am so excited to be in the Caribbean at that camp, letting the light of God shine through me. I'm so excited to spend the rest of the summer out west. I am so excited to promote growth in my life. AHHHHHH.
God, I am so sorry I haven't allowed you to be as involved in my life as you are yearning to be. But thank you for giving me the opportunities you give me in my life, and thank you for giving me the courage to embrace them. Thank you for teaching me to love. Thank you for making me who I am. Thank you for helping me embrace myself and allowing me to seek your glory. You are such and amazing thing, and i'm so glad to know you. In everything that I do, I hope people see me in you.
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