eat, pray, love.

I read this and it reminded me of someone I know.
It reminded me of her heart, and just how big and open it has become. It reminded me of her strength, her storm that she over came... and how much better off she is now.

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master...”

grace

Just when I was starting to feel down,
I heard God say:

"You are not unloveable. I love you."


That's the beauty of grace.

I always open to Psalm

I run for dear life to God,
I'll never live to regret it.
Do what you do so well:
get me out of this mess and up on my feet.
Put your ear to the ground and listen,
give me space for salvation.
Be a guest romm where I can retreat;
you said your door was always open!
You're my savation- my vast, granite fortress.
-Psalm 71:1-3

This is the place I go when I need to escape,
....when I need to escape myself.

Sometimes my mind and my heart get confused..
sometimes my brain needs something but my heart doesn't want it..
sometimes...its the other way around.

Sometimes its hard to find something solid...something certain.

God is always solid.
God is always certain.
In order for me to believe in myself, I have to first believe in something bigger.
I am not here to serve myself. I choose to believe that.

I am a self-destructive human.
I am my own worst enemie...
that's why I can't rely on my heart. I can't rely on my brain to make the right decisions sometimes,
I need to count on God.
God knows what my heart truly desires... he put those desires there.

I have a change to make.
I know I'm going to need God to guide me in the right direction because this change isn't just about me. It's bigger than me.

I know I can't do it alone.

Sometimes there's an underying change waiting to happen in us and we find ourselves sitting around anticipating for something to happen.. something big that opens up our hearts to our flaws. Something that wakes us up, something that makes us come alive and makes us realize what it's going to take to get the change that we desire.

A starting point,
a fresh start.

That time is now.

Forget about self-confidence; it's useless. Cultivate God-confidence. No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he'll never let you be pushed past your limit; he'll always be there to help you come through it. -01 Corinthians 10:12-13